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[December 6th, 2007 @ 12:40am] [ mood | tired ] Tired.. that is me.. all the time.. non stop.. keep going.. dont think.. Just do.. sleep.. work.. keep going.. hope that there will be a break.. sleep.. keep going.. keep going.. keep going.. keep going.. keep going..

[May 30th, 2007 @ 3:21am] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | Umbrella - Rihanna ] Well.. It has been a long long time since I last posted up here! :P And a great great deal of things have happened! A great great deal of things have changed too! I'm almost done all my paramedic co-op and it has been a long time comming. I've really been changed and have seen the world in a completely different way! I've seen people die, people try to kill themselfs, new beginnings, and beginnings that have been lost. I've seen people that have lost hope and seen people that have gainned a great deal of hope. And to give someone that hope and bringing someone back to life is probibly one of the most awsome feelings anyone could every experience. Now, one thing that hasn't changed is my love for my one and only Jessie! She has suck with me through the crazyest stuff, and the fact that everyday when i get home she always wants to know what has happened that day. And when I get home and hear her voice on that phone, I know that nothing could ever ruin that moment. And the more I am with Jessie the more i know that almost nothing could ruin us right now! We are amazing, and at wondergrad we had the most amazing night ever! My love for Jessie grew 10X! :D She is my babe! Oh I forgot to mention that I'm up this late because I can't sleep! (Jessie I didn't phone you because you are sleeping sound :) ) Also this is the end of me and highschool I'm almost done. I can leave this school and go onto a greater place away from the hallways of highschool drama! Well.. on to college drama ughh!!! hahaha! This summer is going to be awsome kick it off with Mikes BBQ! Going to be awsome! I've been running almost everyday soo that when I take off my shirt In the summer Jessie won't have some Lardo to go swimming with! :P OH and this summer I'm deff hopeign for lots of Parties :D! And me and mike are going to LAMB OF GOD in August it is going to be fuckin intence!!!! Neways Giving this update has been pritty sick! It has been a wile :D! Have a good night everyone! Love You Jessie! :D

[March 8th, 2007 @ 2:47am] [ mood | calm ] [ music | jay z - lost ones ] I haven't updated in a long time.. i just felt this was the time ive been a paramedic for 4 days.. and ive seen somethings that im going to remember for the rest of my life. and i've been going over myspace and looking at pages of peoples.. some are peoples that i know and talk to on a regular bases.. some i havent talked to in a long time. Some i make very happy.. some i make feel like complete crap and make me look like a complete ass. what i want to say to these people, cant be brought into words .. and not only to them but all the people ive ever talked to, everyone, that over the years i have concidered a friend i know there are people out there that still - even though they show that they are good with me - on the outside somewhere deep in there, there is a scar that hasent fully healed .. and i hope someday you will be able to forgive . and all my friends that i havent scared i truely hope i never do... because all life comes to and end one day, believe me im going to see it.. and ive come close to seeing it in the past four days. lol.. i never thought that a beat from a rap song would make me think this up LMAO.. i guess what im trying to say is your all amazing.. and if someday down the road.. i run into you or you or you run into me.. it may take me a second but i will remember you and my last msg i guess.. no matter who you are.. in the end you are missed by someone

[January 18th, 2007 @ 4:14pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | As i Lay Dying - Behind Me Lies Another Fallen Soldier ] I wanted to bring you all that is in my heart I wanted to give you my everything but I've failed you I've failed you so many times how can I stand here how can I stand here before you how can I stand here before you when I begin to steal what only belongs to you what only belongs to you I am able to bring you Nothing that isn't already yours I am so ashamed, I'm so ashamed Of what I ever called my own Take what I have, take these broken remains What can I give to you that you don't already deserve You laid down your life when I refused to give mine This is as i lay dying.. Behind me lies another fallen soldier... IT pritty much shows how im felling.. ive left the band.. a huge part of my life is now gone.. i was pritty much unwanted by the guitarists. so w/e.. that is life.. and it goes on.. on the bright side.. i have jessica.. and it is our 6 month today :D!! which is awsome!!! love her soo much.. and that is what is new with me.. peace out yall!

Whats NEw [December 25th, 2006 @ 11:42pm] [ mood | cheerful ] Whats NEw: - IT is christmas and it has been a pritty good one at that ive gotten to spend it with my family! and i got to spend some of it with jess and her family! it has been awsome!AND GUESS WHAT i got the wIII! LOL it is awsome.. and i got a pair of freeking crazy awsome snowboarding goggles from jess!!! - Im not working..well i am at erin mill twin. again.. - I miss jess right now.. - Been trying to find more ideas for my art project!!! - Just Finished watching both ice ages!!! - Im in LOVE with the best girl in the world and it is amazing!!!!! :D! just thought you should know ♥ PEACE, LOVE, AND PROSPERITY !!!!

[December 4th, 2006 @ 9:32pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | As i lay dying ] SO my first in a long long long time..school has stressed me out.. same with work.. it is insaine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and i have no time for anything anymore GURRR!!!!!!winter brake soon cant say i havent been looking forward to it.. also .. next show on dec 9th :Oit is goign to be funnnnnn!.. i want another concert to roll into town... i want one really really bad.. or i want to go snowboarding.. eather one will do.. :(.. i just need something that i can let everything out!!!!!!!!!!

[November 12th, 2006 @ 9:42pm] [ mood | thankful ] [ music | Jt - My Love ] Well .. this is my new post.. there really isnt anything to say.. .. a certain secret got out. gj guys.. o well.. hahaha ummm this weekend has been awsome i got to see jess lots.. which doesnt happen often :D! last night was awsome we jsut hung out and when we lyed down on jess's bed just the tv was on and we were looking into each other's eyes, and jess is soooo beautiful! she is fuckin gorgous.. she doesnt see it but she really should.. she is just the most amazing gf that i could ever have and i feel so lucky that she is mine :D! Ain't another woman that can take your spot my-love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE YOU SOO MUCH!!!! ♥

[October 29th, 2006 @ 9:16pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | Lamb of god ] Well another weekend has passed.. long weekend at that.. had work today, got home had lunch and was just soo fuckin tired i passed out on my bed! Anyways CRAZY weekend and even more drama gad! !GIRLS! You know what.. my buddy mike came up to me in the hall at school the other day and said that we dont hang out as much anymore, so as soon as he said that i said alright ill change that and i hung out with him a lot this weekend stayed at his house spent most of saterday with him !HE TALKED TO ME HE DIDNT TALK SHIT BEHIND MY BACK! And of all ppl would not have expected it from jess's friends some people need to think about what they are doing... and that is my take on everything.. if mike could do it why couldnt you :S LOL it is almost funny if i think about it but i never want jess to feel like that again that pissed me off... Peace out! PS The bands show on friday kicked ass~!

[October 23rd, 2006 @ 2:15pm] [ mood | worried ] [ music | none ] Sometimes i worry. Like she is going to end up finding someone better. It has happened to me before why cant it happen again. No matter what I do i just cant get away from the feeling.\ I love her so much... Also things are starting to get weird in the group, it almost feels like this person is replacing me. This summer was awsome and last year was awsome but since this person has been broght in .. it just feels weird, and im not the only one of the guys to think this. :S.. it just isnt the same me mike and trev gotta have a distroy the world day that will make me feel better...... anyways... just some more things to think about.. on my list of one million things to worry about..

[October 21st, 2006 @ 6:10pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | destain ] i havent posted in a long time.. here is what has been going on.. i havent seen the band in a wile.. so we are having a practice tomorrow me and jess are awsome.. our 3 month just past.. took her to the leafs game the other day awsome! school and work have been crazy .. :( soo much too dooooooo! swimming has been ok im pissed though.. my butterfly is crap now! FUCK im doing it in 37 sec.. my fastest was 31 last year what happened?!?!?!?!?!?! FAK!!!! well that was a quick overview.. BTW COME TO THE HYPE IN BRAMPTON FOR OUR BANDS NEXT SHOW THIS FRIDAY! CHECK DETAILS AT WWW.MYSPACE.COM/DESTAIN

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