bassman_penny

bassman_penny @ 2007-12-06T00:40:00

2007-12-06T05:43:27Z

Tired.. that is me.. all the time.. non stop.. keep going..
dont think.. Just do.. sleep.. work.. keep going..
hope that there will be a break.. sleep.. keep going..
keep going..
keep going..

keep going..

keep going..

bassman_penny @ 2007-05-30T03:21:00

2007-05-30T07:40:05Z

Well.. It has been a long long time since I last posted up here! :P And a great great deal of things have happened! A great great deal of things have changed too! I'm almost done all my paramedic co-op and it has been a long time comming. I've really been changed and have seen the world in a completely different way! I've seen people die, people try to kill themselfs, new beginnings, and beginnings that have been lost. I've seen people that have lost hope and seen people that have gainned a great deal of hope. And to give someone that hope and bringing someone back to life is probibly one of the most awsome feelings anyone could every experience.
Now, one thing that hasn't changed is my love for my one and only Jessie! She has suck with me through the crazyest stuff, and the fact that everyday when i get home she always wants to know what has happened that day. And when I get home and hear her voice on that phone, I know that nothing could ever ruin that moment. And the more I am with Jessie the more i know that almost nothing could ruin us right now! We are amazing, and at wondergrad we had the most amazing night ever! My love for Jessie grew 10X! :D She is my babe!
Oh I forgot to mention that I'm up this late because I can't sleep! (Jessie I didn't phone you because you are sleeping sound :) )
Also this is the end of me and highschool I'm almost done. I can leave this school and go onto a greater place away from the hallways of highschool drama! Well.. on to college drama ughh!!! hahaha! This summer is going to be awsome kick it off with Mikes BBQ! Going to be awsome! I've been running almost everyday soo that when I take off my shirt In the summer Jessie won't have some Lardo to go swimming with! :P OH and this summer I'm deff hopeign for lots of Parties :D! And me and mike are going to LAMB OF GOD in August it is going to be fuckin intence!!!!
Neways Giving this update has been pritty sick! It has been a wile :D!

Have a good night everyone!
Love You Jessie! :D

bassman_penny @ 2007-03-08T02:47:00

2007-03-08T08:03:34Z

I haven't updated in a long time.. i just felt this was the time

ive been a paramedic for 4 days.. and ive seen somethings that im going to remember for the rest of my life. and i've been going over myspace and looking at pages of peoples.. some are peoples that i know and talk to on a regular bases.. some i havent talked to in a long time. Some i make very happy.. some i make feel like complete crap and make me look like a complete ass. what i want to say to these people, cant be brought into words .. and not only to them but all the people ive ever talked to, everyone, that over the years i have concidered a friend i know there are people out there that still - even though they show that they are good with me - on the outside somewhere deep in there, there is a scar that hasent fully healed .. and i hope someday you will be able to forgive . and all my friends that i havent scared i truely hope i never do... because all life comes to and end one day, believe me im going to see it.. and ive come close to seeing it in the past four days.

lol.. i never thought that a beat from a rap song would make me think this up LMAO..

i guess what im trying to say is your all amazing..

and if someday down the road.. i run into you or you or you run into me.. it may take me a second but i will remember you

and my last msg i guess..
no matter who you are.. in the end you are missed by someone

bassman_penny @ 2007-01-18T16:14:00

2007-01-18T21:17:46Z

I wanted to bring you all that is in my heart
I wanted to give you my everything
but I've failed you
I've failed you so many times
how can I stand here
how can I stand here before you

how can I stand here before you
when I begin to steal
what only belongs to you
what only belongs to you

I am able to bring you
Nothing that isn't already yours

I am so ashamed, I'm so ashamed
Of what I ever called my own
Take what I have, take these broken remains
What can I give to you that you don't already deserve

You laid down your life when I refused to give mine

This is as i lay dying.. Behind me lies another fallen soldier... IT pritty much shows how im felling.. ive left the band.. a huge part of my life is now gone.. i was pritty much unwanted by the guitarists. so w/e.. that is life.. and it goes on..
on the bright side.. i have jessica.. and it is our 6 month today :D!! which is awsome!!!
love her soo much..
and that is what is new with me..
peace out yall!

Whats NEw

2006-12-26T05:42:47Z

Whats NEw:
- IT is christmas and it has been a pritty good one at that ive gotten to spend it with my family! and i got to spend some of it with jess and her family! it has been awsome!AND GUESS WHAT i got the wIII! LOL it is awsome.. and i got a pair of freeking crazy awsome snowboarding goggles from jess!!!
- Im not working..well i am at erin mill twin. again..
- I miss jess right now..
- Been trying to find more ideas for my art project!!!
- Just Finished watching both ice ages!!!
- Im in LOVE with the best girl in the world and it is amazing!!!!! :D! just thought you should know ♥

PEACE, LOVE, AND PROSPERITY !!!!

bassman_penny @ 2006-12-04T21:32:00

2006-12-05T03:32:16Z

SO my first in a long long long time..school has stressed me out.. same with work.. it is insaine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and i have no time for anything anymore GURRR!!!!!!winter brake soon cant say i havent been looking forward to it.. also .. next show on dec 9th :Oit is goign to be funnnnnn!.. i want another concert to roll into town... i want one really really bad.. or i want to go snowboarding.. eather one will do.. :(.. i just need something that i can let everything out!!!!!!!!!!

bassman_penny @ 2006-11-12T21:42:00

2006-11-13T03:42:50Z

Well .. this is my new post.. there really isnt anything to say..
.. a certain secret got out. gj guys.. o well.. hahaha
ummm this weekend has been awsome i got to see jess lots.. which doesnt happen often :D!
last night was awsome we jsut hung out and when we lyed down on jess's bed just the tv was on
and we were looking into each other's eyes, and jess is soooo beautiful! she is fuckin gorgous..
she doesnt see it but she really should.. she is just the most amazing gf that i could ever have
and i feel so lucky that she is mine :D!

Ain't another woman that can take your spot my-love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE YOU SOO MUCH!!!! ♥

bassman_penny @ 2006-10-29T21:16:00

2006-10-30T02:30:41Z

Well another weekend has passed.. long weekend at that.. had work today, got home had lunch and was just soo fuckin tired i passed out on my bed!
Anyways CRAZY weekend and even more drama gad! !GIRLS!
You know what.. my buddy mike came up to me in the hall at school the other day and said
that we dont hang out as much anymore, so as soon as he said that i said alright ill change that
and i hung out with him a lot this weekend stayed at his house spent most of saterday with him
!HE TALKED TO ME HE DIDNT TALK SHIT BEHIND MY BACK!
And of all ppl would not have expected it from jess's friends
some people need to think about what they are doing...

and that is my take on everything.. if mike could do it why couldnt you :S LOL
it is almost funny if i think about it
but i never want jess to feel like that again
that pissed me off...

Peace out!

PS The bands show on friday kicked ass~!

bassman_penny @ 2006-10-23T14:15:00

2006-10-23T18:37:16Z

Sometimes i worry. Like she is going to end up finding someone better. It has happened to me before why cant it happen again.
No matter what I do i just cant get away from the feeling.\
I love her so much...

Also things are starting to get weird in the group, it almost feels like this person is replacing me. This summer was awsome and last year was awsome but since this person has been broght in .. it just feels weird, and im not the only one of the guys to think this. :S.. it just isnt the same
me mike and trev gotta have a distroy the world day that will make me feel better......

anyways... just some more things to think about.. on my list of one million things to worry about..

bassman_penny @ 2006-10-21T18:10:00

2006-10-21T22:13:57Z

i havent posted in a long time.. here is what has been going on..
i havent seen the band in a wile.. so we are having a practice tomorrow
me and jess are awsome.. our 3 month just past.. took her to the leafs game the other day awsome!
school and work have been crazy .. :( soo much too dooooooo!
swimming has been ok im pissed though.. my butterfly is crap now! FUCK im doing it in 37 sec.. my fastest was 31 last year what happened?!?!?!?!?!?! FAK!!!!

well that was a quick overview.. BTW
COME TO THE HYPE IN BRAMPTON FOR OUR BANDS NEXT SHOW THIS FRIDAY!
CHECK DETAILS AT WWW.MYSPACE.COM/DESTAIN

bassman_penny @ 2006-10-09T01:26:00

2006-10-09T05:26:17Z

thxgiving has been awsome! i got to see the family, and they got to meet jess! that was awsome! soo much food too, i oviously had a great time. Also my uncle has seasons tix to the leafs and offerd me and jess the tix to this saterdays game against calgary! This weekend is awsome.. and tomorrow no school.. no to mention i got the new songs:P..

There is just one thing that is happening that i really dont like, my grandma is really sic, and it looks like she is on her last legs *knock on wood*, i really dont want her to die, she is the best i really hope she gets better.. :(

bassman_penny @ 2006-10-04T22:17:00

2006-10-05T02:20:12Z

worried about jesss.. she didnt seem as happy today.. :(
hopefully she feels better tomorrow.
.. me in the mean time. have not yet been able to sit down..
im so tired.. i feel like im going to fall over and never get up..
i just really need someone to help me stay on my feet!
and jess is right there ♥

Ill be your guardian angel

bassman_penny @ 2006-10-03T22:48:00

2006-10-04T02:49:50Z

Really Fucking Busy is all i have to say...
i havent had any time to rest.. :(

My heart beats for you...
♥

bassman_penny @ 2006-09-24T21:59:00

2006-09-25T02:03:47Z

aright so i wasnt forced out of jess's house.. but i had to go home..
anyways.. today.. i went to work.. took my brother to work..
hung with mike and kevin.. we talked went and saw jesss.. at work.. hahaha..
she didnt like that..but she looked cute hahahaa
um then.. went and picked up my brother.. and hung with jess for a hour..
and that was that.. what a weekend!
crazy!

PS I GOT A CELLLL!!!!!
~647-239-ERIC~

this weekend

2006-09-24T23:33:06Z

Well this weekend started out.. weard.. friday night.. was ok.. i saw jess.. but i dont know.. it seamed off like something was wrong.. but w/e .. everything was better saterday
The band had a show at the hype last night that went really well we did an awsome job!
and then after i went back to jess's.. i had an amazing time.. i didnt want to leave but i had to.. and was kinda forced out at the same time.. but w/e.. i missed her sooo much.. more than anytime before.. you know your in love when. hahaha..
and today.. ill talk about that later.. i gotta go pick up my brother..

bassman_penny @ 2006-09-18T22:09:00

2006-09-19T02:13:07Z

yayaya! Today is me and jess's 2 month.. really it doesnt sound long.. and it seems like soo much longer.. i love her to death! :D this year is going to go great for us.. ive also found that over the week i miss her a lot even though i see her.. i guess it is because i dont really get to spend any time with her.. other than lunch.. cuz in art class we are doing work.. :S..
but it is still awsome to see her!

Tomorrow pre recording .... going to be awsome!

bassman_penny @ 2006-09-17T22:15:00

2006-09-18T02:17:59Z

work to day - ok
band practice - good
not seeing jess - bad
:(

Everything

2006-09-17T05:09:14Z

Well my 18th birthday has passed and it was awsome my friends are the best i love each and everyone of you thank you soo much! Thank you for the cake lauren and jess you two are awsome and the cake was great thank you paul and chloe for the shirt and lauren meg jess and mike thanx a bunch for the cd's :D! more for my collection :D!
BTW lamb of god cd.. FUCK its some crazy shit
Randy you are the man

Today the band met at dc music.. everything is fitting together it is awsome.. you know what bun the del next summer.. and that.. not only would i be leaving the band but i would be leaving jess and not cool.. anyways back on topic.. the band is great we are going into the studio on tuesday we've just ordered a bunch of new shirts... a lot of shows comming up! it is going to be crazy intence!hahaha

Also tonight i hung out with jess! and that girl makes me smile.. she gives me energy like no one else can.. i love her soo much.. tomorrow is our 2 months :D and i couldnt have it any other way! oh and we matched today .. it was pritty cool i must admit, she said that i had been acting weard this whole week.. but today i was better.. IT IS BECAUSE I WAS WITH YOU TODAY SILLY!..
LOVE YOU!

Everything is Going AWSOME.. *knock on wood*

bassman_penny @ 2006-09-10T11:25:00

2006-09-10T15:32:44Z

so the first week of school has been ok.. :S.. i cant really say anything else except i wish that it went by faster than that.. hahaha.. um.. fights about the band with mike.. like wtf.. siriously .. i never expected us to get this big.. and i just wasnt ready for all this responcability band wise,
anyways off that topic.. starting this sat this week is awsome.. i got highered as a life guard / instructor :P that is awsome! my first shift is today 12 to 130 .. just guarding.. hahaha anyways stoked for that
tuesday converge with josh that is going to be fuckin awsome! moshing to converge is going to be crazy.. im deffenatly going to be commming out with some bruses hahahaha
thurs it is my birthday yayayaya 18 it is going to be crazy :D!
:P first thing to do .. buy a bunch of porn! ahhahaha JKS! why buy it when you can get it for free on the internet bahh hahahahaha

and that is it.. me and jess have been doing great although im worried about her.. she hasnt been feeling good at all the last few days.. i just really want her to be getting better

LATER!

Fat!

2006-09-06T03:15:09Z

Alright.. well.. i know im not fat..well trev says im packing on the pounds but w/e.. i am deffenatly unsatisfyed with myself...
i have pudge!!! and i really want it gone..
my stomach should have abs like it used to .. not this layer of fat fack!
i want to set a schedual that i will stick too...
mon - 2 k + kick boxing
tues - 100 crunches + 50 push ups
wend - 2 k + kick boxing
thurs - rest
fri - 5 k + 50 crunches + 30 pushups
sat - kickboxing + 50 crunches + 30 pushups
sun - rest

i guess this will help.. oh and no more .. microwavables.. hahahaha.. yeah really all i eat is pizza pops.. pogos.. chef boiardi... and patties.. yeah.. i used to eat too much crap.. that is done. :D!
last year.. i quit weed for the swim team.. now.. im doing this for swimming.. and myself.. hahahaha..
anyways.. if you think i should go harder and it isnt an intece enough workout.. let me know peace!

bassman_penny @ 2006-08-28T13:55:00

2006-08-28T18:02:17Z

Last night was awsome! I had an awsome time at pauls party! swimming in the hot tub ahhahaha!
and ofcoarse hanging with all the dudes! mike, josh, trev, paul, kev rock on! but my fav part of the night deff was sitting in front of the fire! i loved it! sitting wiht jessica and watching the fire ♥ ^.^ ahhahaha fun!

the other day at playdium went great untill the end! when they told us we didnt win.. everyone there loved us.. but i guess the judges didnt.. assholes.. we had the pit going .. nun of the other bands did.. pfft!w/e.. everything is awsome right now!
and im glad that im not the only one that has shown that they hate steph now hahahaha!
anyways! great weeekend all and all!

You are everything to me dont ever forget that! ♥

bassman_penny @ 2006-08-26T00:53:00

2006-08-26T04:53:51Z

well today was the first show of a long weekend of shows tomorrow is the cancerbats show :P that is going to be kick ass!! for sure!
got to see mike havent seen that dude for a wile rock on! and yeah
everything is going great!

She is my boat
She is my star
She has taken my heart very far
so far i cannot find it anymore
but i dont want it back and i hope to never get it back
because she has my heart and i have hers and i plan to hold onto it
and never give it back!
♥ LOVE

bassman_penny @ 2006-08-21T01:29:00

2006-08-21T05:32:44Z

Written from my heart sealed with my kiss
These words will describe our eternal bliss
And when I lay my head to sleep on my bed
You are the thoughts wondering in my head

When my eyes shut I see an image of you
Nothing can distract for you are my only view
I wish you were here, holding me so tight
Yet instead I will be dreaming of you tonight

I dream of the future that together we'll share
The laughs and cries we'll see in this love affair
I count down the minutes until I see you next
I just want to run away with you into the sunset

I've fallen in something that is magical and deep
A picture drawn inside my heart forever to keep
An essay written in words the describe this love
A prayer to the angels thanking them up above

I look into your eyes and I see forever right there
I feel it in your touch as you brush through my hair
And each time we kiss I feel the love deep down
You've changed my life and turned my world around

this is a great poem that i found..
guess who i think about when i read this..
♥

bassman_penny @ 2006-08-17T12:48:00

2006-08-17T16:52:03Z

Hummm.. late night last night.. almost 4 before i went to bed..
i was out with trev and josh jumping schools.. untill like 12.. and then talked to jess till about 4.. ♥
yeah long night hahaha!
i kicked her ass in checkers though :P hahaha
today selling tickets.. the band is getting stressful..
i think it may be getting more sirious than i hoped..

bassman_penny @ 2006-08-13T20:03:00

2006-08-14T00:07:33Z

well im home .. that is right.. :D! and guess what the big mutha fucking news is!!!
that is right! if we come in the top 3 at the battle of the bands with the cancer bats we get to play along side silverstein at the finals !!! WHAT WHAT!!! but other than that.. im really glad to be home! and to see everyone espechaly jessica! i have missed her like crazy.. all the couples at the del reminded me of her, and everytime i went to bed, listened to my sleepy playlist.. boats and birds.. on there.. just screaming jess! in my ear.. :P glad to be home .. extatic to see her last night..
PS .. i got a tan to kick all yours out the mutha fuckin doors :P!